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Whining and Pansies

Created on: Jan 21st, 2021 @ 05:48 AM

When one whines what does it mean? Literally, it is a physical manifestation, but that’s not the connotation. Some people think you’re weak, somebody out there has to think it’s genuine, and naturally the truth is in that range. But, as almost every term, it is overloaded as hell, so, does it even mean anything? We can just narrow it to meaning weakness, but then what does that mean? Is it weak to value life over the right? Being too incompetent to do what you actually want? To have conviction but never do anything.

It matters more some days. Caring is tiring.

And, today, being inauguration, I happened to just stay away from politics. Too reactionary, myself and others.

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