February 13th, 2021

Meta

I recently moved the site to netlify, but that’s rather inconsequential, hardly worth mentioning as nothing changed. Discovered Gridsome which seems to be exactly what I’m looking for now. The new engine is working but I do want to polish some edges before it goes up, like tags and styling.

Main

Not much specific to say today, or any this past week, just general dissappointment and not wanting to go AWOL like I tend to with everything. It’s been an unfortunate day, with accountability being so obviously a lie. If you don’t know what I mean, “Treason” and “Spineless bastards” are good terms. It’s beyond obnoxious that for 99% of people a crime is a no-no, for a sizable chunk it’s really a no-no, but some people can evade any consequence of significance and, if history is to be trusted, they will be throwing the book at others for breaking the law. I’ve known for a long, long time, as a Mexican who is disabled, that justice does not exist, but it’s still jarring to see that some people can be so blatantly hypocritical about it.

I’m also thinking of trying to get back to my routine. No, not before covid-19; I still have functioning brain cells, rather, pre-Octoberish. The isolation is not doing me favors and I have talked about guilt, this is one of those things. I feel like I’m just using people and throwing them aside once they become a bother to me. I’m not comfortable with that, but at the same time, I do have limits to what I can withstand and some people can go too far. I will try to get back on twitter (little bit, it’s like the sun; don’t stare at it), on Discord, and I’m not sure if IRC. I don’t feel right just running away either. If I can’t stay somewhere, I shouldn’t just run away. Ideally, I’d get something to help me not pass out (I do have really bad social anxiety; so bad that any human interaction can make me physically ill), but since that’s annoying to get here, I’m just going to hope for the best.